Tuesday, August 25, 2009

a bad dream

i dreamt last night that my brother had died.

we were swimming in the ocean near the shore(this is actually the second ocean-related dream i've had with Chris), and it was getting dark as we were swimming toward these people. it became a queue, and as we weaved through the line, we noticed sharks sneaking up and snatching people from below, but in a silent and stealthy way, like moray eels just popping up and grabbing before retracting to the deeper water. we were reaching the destination (?) without noticing any commotion, when my brother was grabbed. we both tried kicking at the shark's gills, and he was dragged away but there was no sure way of telling whether or not he made it.

so i find myself in this building on the water, old wood everywhere, imagine like a cross between a small library and a hotel check-in counter where i went to inquire about Chris. there was a list of survivors and a list of wounded, as well as a list of the deceased. for some reason i had all this hope and confidence because as i was asking the woman (an asian woman), she had the first list showing, on one side of a sheet of paper.
but, as she checked for his name - much in the way a librarian might look through a catalog listing, as in, without any particular solemnity - she turns the sheet over and says i was mistaken, and that my brother was listed among the dead. what followed was pretty awful, i fell to my knees, and was so sad - and promptly woke up and was freaked out for the first ten minutes of my day.

Saturday, August 15, 2009


Friday, August 7, 2009

a story that took way to long to draw out to be really worth it, but i'm doing it anyway.

a funny thing happened to me on the way to the coffee.

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

Sharkweek Masterbesto.

So the full moon is thursday.
I believe in pre-emptive spell casting/check cashing.
So what will u inflict on reality @ XXX-Large?
It's time 2 scream the braizes of Freedom and Love and of Painful Heartbreak That Is Totally Worth It!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Get the wrong impression.
Feed in frenzy.
Fart like nobody is smelling.
Dance like a predatory fuckbeast.
And...........dont forget 2 feed the chickens.


Monday, August 3, 2009

Shark week m#%^&fu&^%$s!!!!!!!!

It's Sharkweek god damn it!
Watch and learn bitches, watch and learn!
And I mean bitches in the most empowering way.
This is the perfect op. 2 find out just what you're made of.
So what kind of shark R U anywhats?
Bull, Hammerhead, Great White, Tiger?
Dont front like U dont know/no/gnau.

Full moon 2nite so............
Cast those spells and cast your checks upon the chao, 4 they will knot return un2 U voided.
A rising tide raises all shit that floats.

So float on my predators of the deep.


She said “Welcome to hell, my name is Death” as she put her hand in mine, I felt the echo of a heartbeat within a mile of my chest and nearly drowned as I drew in her cold breath. The candlelight seemed to fall into her alabaster skin as I took note that her eyes were both kind and bright, forgiving, in the moment, the circumstance and thinking to myself ‘You’re going to die, however, a good woman is hard to find’.


Sunday, August 2, 2009

Even the losers...